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Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
4:52 pm
and this will be the last of it
yes!! I just got a call from this lady at the cookie factory. It's that cookie place at the mall. She said to come in for an interview tomorrow after school. I MIGHT BE GETTIN A JOB BITCHES!!! But, i'll probably have to quit after a couple of weeks, because I'm going to phoenix for a month, and then to florida, so I doubt they'll let me come back in a month. Oh well, as long as I get some fast cash I'm good to go.

Current Mood: excited
Saturday, May 7th, 2005
4:37 pm
Bottomless pit of wondering and hoping....
So, yesterday I went to the park. It was woooonderful. While laying down listening to Crass and staring up at the vast blue sky of nothingness, I wondered how my life could be so tranquil with everything that's going on in it. I felt so...relieved I guess. Relived that I had found an escape for the time being. That I could stare up at the sky, and wonder how many other people were doing that exact same thing at that exact same time. I forgot about technology and things that I don't need. Peacefullness seemed to overtake my body, and I was genuinly happy in those moments..which is something I haven't known for quite some time now.


Anywho, then I went to the movies with Luke, and we saw "Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy". What a waste. It was soo boring! It was a series of events that were meaningless and completely retarded in every sense. Then today I went to the movies with him again, and we saw "Kingdom of Heaven". That one was a lot better, I actually liked it. It was about the crusades. Pretty good.


So when I got home, my sister told me that John had called for me. Twice. He called at 2, then again at 3. I was so happy. John is the guy that said he would take me to the warped tour on june 24th (its in dallas). He even said he's pay for me! He's so nice.. Anyway, I haven't called him back. He said he'd call at 6, so I guess I'll wait for him to call me. I don't want to seem too....anxious?

Current Mood: content
Sunday, May 1st, 2005
3:59 pm
How is this right?
I don't know how to express myself. I think I do it best through what I wear. Other than that, I have no idea how to do it. I can never tell you how I'm feeling, or the thoughts going through my head, because, quite frankly, I don't know. Even if I do know, I'm not sure how to express it in words, I have to do it other ways....I took some jeans from sami, and i'm going to make it into a skirt, and wear it with some tights...right..I should get to it, to let people know who I am, cuz if they asked me, I wouldn't know what to say...


p.s. sorry for the rambling, bare with me...

Current Mood: artistic
Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
9:14 pm
emotions, emotions! Why am I angry?
External control are you gonna let them get you?
Gonna be a prisoner in the boundaries they set you?
Say you wanna be yourself, but christ, you think they'll let you?
They're out to get you get you get you get you get you get you!!!
Hello hello hello, this is the lord god can you hear?
Well fire and damnation's what I've got for you down there.
On earth I have ambassadors, archbishops, vicor, pope
We'll blind you with morality you best abandon any hope.
We're telling you you'd better pray cos you were born in sin.
Right from the start we'll build a cell, and then we'll lock you in.
We sit in holy judgement condeming those that stray
We offer our forgiveness but first we'll make you pay!!


Hello hello hello, now here's a message from your queen
As figure head of the status quo I set the social scene.
I'm most concerned about my people
I want to give them peace
so i'm making sure they stay in line wiht my army, and police.
My prisons and my mental homes have ever open doors
For those amongst my subjects who dare to ask for more.
Unruliness and disrespect are things I can't allow
So I'll see the peasants grovel, if they refuse to bow.
External control are you gonna let them get you?
Gonna be a prisoner in the boundaries they set you?
Say you wanna be yourself but christ you think they'll let you?
They're out to get you get you get you get you get you get you!

Introducing the prime sinister
She's a mother to us all
Like the dutch boys finger in the dyke
Her ass is in the wall.
Holding back the future waiting for the seas to part
If moses did it with his faith, she'll do it with an army!

Current Mood: pissed off
Saturday, April 23rd, 2005
11:59 am
stolen from luke
[my name is]: liza
[in the morning i am]: tired
[all i need is]: concerts, moshpits, and a 6 pack
[love is]: looking like shit, and neither of you care, but he doesn't say "you look beautiful!" He says,"you look like shit today. can i put your makeup on tomorrow?"
[i'm afraid of]: staying in shreveport too long
[i dream about]: weird stuff that I can't remember in the morning
[i miss]: my brother, kevin, and my parents

-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .
[pictured your crush naked?]: yes
[actually seen your crush naked]: nope
[fucked]: no.
[had sex]: no.
[made love]: no.
[been in love]: I don't know.....?
[cried when someone died]: no
[lied]: yes

-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[coke or pepsi]: coke, it's not as sweet
[flowers or candy]: flowers. you can save them when they are dried and dead.
[tall or short]: for a boyfriend, i like them to be taller than me. for friends, shorter, so I can feel taller.
-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do you notice first?]: clothing. if it's the right guy, he's got a leather jacket and studs.
[last person you slow danced with]: shane meshell.
[worst question to ask]: do i look fat? oh course you do honey! but they won't tell you!
-W H O-
[makes you laugh the most?]: I never laugh. maybe sami though. she's hilarious.
[makes you smile]: ignorant people when they argue with me
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: this guy i used to have a crush on....
[do you have a crush on?]: I think you all know : )
[has a crush on you?]: like 4 guys in my science class who grab me ass. eww. and also this senior, but no.
[easiest to talk to]: myself

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]: not really, maybe sometimes
[save yahoo/aim/msn/ conversations]: i have msn ones.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: not really--maybe monthly, actually
[cried because of someone saying something to you]: no, not really
-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R .
[fallen for your best friend]: yes
[been rejected]: a couple times
[rejected someone]: yes
[used someone]: no.
[been cheated on]: not to my knowledge, no
[done something you regret]: never. I'll never regret anything.

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone]: sami's mom I think
[hugged]: evan, when I was leaving holiday&dixie..hmm, that's odd..
[you instant messaged]: luke (as I'm typing this actually...)
[you laughed with]: paula and evan on the gravitator. we cried we were laughing so hard. awesome..
-D O .Y O U-
[color your hair]: no, but just you wait til i'm 18....it's going to be hot pink
[ever get off the damn computer]: no, no can't say that I do...
[habla espanol]: no.

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[smoke cigarettes]: no
[obsessive]: not really. i dont think so. do you?
[could you live without the computer?]: yeah. if i seriously had to--wait. no. no i couldn't..
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?]: umm, not many...like, 40
[what's your favorite food?]: chicken. what can i say? i'm an american...
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: cherries
[drink alchohol?]: yes ma'am
[like watching sunrises or sunsets?]: I guess sunsets since I'm nocturnal and that's when i come outside
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: physical pain, most definitly
[trust others way too easily?]: no, i trust about 5 people
-N U M B E R-
[of times i have had my heart broken? ]: I don't think I have...ok,ok..MAYBE, once?
[of hearts i have broken?] : no idea--ask the guys in my science class who i beat up daily...
[of boys i have kissed?] : am i suppose to remember this?
[of girls i have kissed?] : I think maybe 2...or 3...not sure
[of continents i have lived in?] : 1
[of drugs taken illegally?] : (: never!! never would i take illegal drugs!!
[of tight friends?] : like, 5
[of cd's that i own?] : I don't want to count em...you count em!
[of scars on my body?] : at least 20
[of things in my past that i regret?] NOTHING!! EVER!!

Current Mood: anxious, excited, depressed
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
8:58 pm
what is life without the friends you make and the people you meet?
I feel horrible. Like shit, if you will. I feel like a TERRIBLE friend and person. How could I be such an asshole? I'm sorry if any of you (haha--a comic relief--I've only got like 2 friends on here)feel like I have left you out or if you feel like I don't like you as much any more. I'm sorry. I don't do these things intentionally, so please forgive me. You know who you are! ; )

Current Mood: worried
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
9:05 pm
your love is like a sea of blue. it overwhelms me, but it turned me to you
I'm so very happy right now. I have no idea why. I think this weekend is going to fun, though I don't know what I'm doing...possibly something with Luke? woohoo!! He seems really cool, which is awesome. Anyway, I hope I get to do somethin fun this weekend. I want to go to holiday&dixie, though I'm not sure what it is, I want to check it out. I hear they've got funnel cakes....mmmmmm. Anywho, I need to start doing my project. I'm putting it off. Can you tell? UGH!!!!

Current Mood: ecstatic
Saturday, April 16th, 2005
4:34 pm
I look into your eyes, and I know what's been said is a lie
OH MY GOD!! HAL SPARKS!! Need I say more? Yes, that gorgeous specimen felt me up!! Not in a way I'd hoped, but he still did it (sorta). Actually, no. He didn't. But he did sign my jeans and his hands were all over that action, yes ma'am! And Paula being the GENIUS that she is got a picture of it for me to flaunt. And flaunt it I will. It was such an awesome night. I had a great time. Memories to last a lifetime....
Sunday, April 10th, 2005
9:14 am
UGH!!! I had to go to ANOTHER bogus bar b q today!! UGH!! dude, I hate fuckin bar b q's!! A girl's worst enemy i tell ya! Anyway, I was so freakin bored today...We got a new computer though, so now I can actually get on aim and use the intra-net and such. Anywho, my weekend was pretty bogus. I didn't really do anything at all. Ugh, how boring....Dude, Sam, sorry I had to leave so freakin early the other night. My sister must've been PMSin cuz she was in such a bad freakin mood. Dude, she was like "I came to pick you up because your friends were being 'disrespectful' because I heard them go "uhh, no! we'll take you home!" so she was bein all pissy and shit. oh well. bah.

Current Mood: gloomy
Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
5:15 pm
what up cuh??
anywho, my computer has a virus, so we are borrowing my sister's finace's friends computer. *whew* and it doesn't have aol, so that is lame. I have a speech due in like two days too. Blah. Someone give me some ideas. It is an informative speech, so it has to explain something though. I wrote down on the paper "how fame and excessive money leads to drug abuse--with 70s punk bands and heroin OD somewhere in there" for my topic, but....yeah. I don't really think that that is informative....I need some ideas! I hate this! If you give me a topic, I'll bitch about it for however long you want me to, but if you want me to choose my own topic, JEEEEEEEEEEESUS!! It'll never happen!!

Current Mood: is this writers block???
Thursday, March 31st, 2005
10:30 am
I'm sitting here listening to Crass (yes, sam, the one you burnt me :) ) And I think I have fallen in love. They are so awesome. Dude, they're going to be my new obsession. Awesome. My favorite part on the whole album is that song, how does it feel, when after that girl sings for a while he SCREAMMS, HOW DOES IT FEEL (to be the mother of a thousand dead)....Dude, that album is great, though it does piss me off when I listen to it (not sure if it is the actual lyrics or him screaming--maybe a combination).

Current Mood: angry
Wednesday, March 30th, 2005
9:44 pm
I want to do something tomorrow. Let's go do someting (even if I don't know you- ha! that'd be....interesting..)
9:42 pm
I suppose I should actually write something on here.

Current Mood: bored
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